Normally Black Friday is like a starting gun and I begin the Holiday race like a trained athlete. In fact I normally gift shop throughout the year, buying and putting aside gifts for loved ones. I typically sequester off sections of my bedroom so that these presents can have a comfortable stay before they are wrapped and given to their respective recipients. It’s something that I enjoy doing too.
However, this year I haven’t had the spirit to do so. Actually my shopping has been at a minimum this year. And my beloved Black Friday was mostly about running errands and getting a few bargains here and there, I think. At the end of the day I was exhausted, and down for the count. Luckily there were no issues in my day, but apparently there were robberies and shootings as well as some crazy lady with pepper spray. I am not sure when, but it has become a day of possible violence and there always seems to be some unfortunate stories of deaths and the astonishing way people treated each other. For this reason I try to stay away from Target (although I ran in and out to get an iPod), Wal-Mart and the mall. Costco and smaller stores are where I go as well as cyber shopping. It’s just not worth the trouble. Plus I love supporting smaller independent sellers, they are an important part of our community and should be treated that way. I am a huge fan of the idea of Small Business Saturday and love the fact that Amex gave me 25 bucks to do so.
In spite of all my mini sprees it hasn’t really felt much like Christmas for me. I haven’t even decorated. I don’t know why, it’s one of my favorite things to do, make my home festive and cozy. Point of fact, I own ,and have been known to wear, an elf hat. Alas the hat is out but I have yet to take out the remaining decorations, again I am not sure why I haven’t had the Christmas spirit visit me just yet. I am not full of humbuggery, but not full of holiday glee either. I wonder if I have a bit of the Charlie Brown Christmas dysfunction…
It may be some sort of seasonal melancholy. I am sure it didn’t help that I’ve been watching movies that are both winsome and dealt with liminality (Spirited Away and The Disappearance of Haruhi Suzumiya). And listening to wistful music (Erik Satie’s Gymnopédie No. 1). It has also been pointed out to me that I have been sighing a great deal too lately. *Sigh*