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The Tao of Stillness…

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Dear Friends,

The end of one year and the beginning of a new one gives us the opportunity to reflect on the year that has been. I think 2011 may have not been everyone’s favorite, I know that it was necessarily mine. But with each year, as with each day, there is something there for us to learn from the experience. And when I think of it, even though things did not go quite as planned they were exactly what I needed. ย Which proves the point that sometimes we don’t know what we need, but life has a way of unexpectedly showing us. In this way you can either accept it and see it as a unique enlightening experience or rail against it. I have found if you do the later your efforts are ultimately futile as it accomplishes very little aside from sheer exhaustion and frustration.

I think the flow for me last year had a very quiet and subdued undertone, this is in stark contrast to my anxious nature as a child. Ever since I was a child I had a natural tendency to stress and worry about things, as I grew older I realized that all that stress and anguish were not helping me to accomplish my goals, they were in fact not healthy and to my detriment in every way. Now realizing this problem and actually taking the effective steps necessary can be two different animals. Sure I tried to not worry too much about things and that helped, but I was still running around like a chicken without a head. And when I was still the compunction to worry flooded back into my thoughts, because for some reason stillness gave me an uneasy feeling as if something was greatly amiss. This may be an American conditioning, because it seems like many other cultures don’t seem as bothered with it. It’s something that I’ve always sat in awe of.

Last year I took some time off, and it ended up being more than I had originally planned for but it gave me ample time to recuperate. I found time to lick my war wounds and heal, this was integral to moving past the past. I had found that I had allowed many of the ghosts of my past to imprison me and with this respite I feel that I have finally fashioned a key to release myself.

I found a great bit of my time was spent with my thoughts, rather than try to busy myself I realized it was better to embrace it. This took a great bit of effort as those little niggling ideas crept into my thoughts, you know the ones that tell gnaw at you with threats of uncertainty and panic. These little nigglers have only the power that you afford them, as they are all part of your imagination. Their ultimate power lies in the word should. Their end goal is to make you doubt yourself and your actions, to create within you and aura of unrest. I think this is something many, if not all, of us battle. Who among us does not question themselves and wonder “what if.” But the truth is that life is filled with questions and risks, there is as much risk to continue with status quo as there is to try something different. They’re just different types of rewards.

Having discarded the need for anxiety, as it has very little use, and quieted the whispers of self-doubt, I was left with quiet understanding. In this quiet understanding was stillness. There was something empowering about allowing myself to be still, I found that I had feared it for some unknown reason. Realizing that stillness was not something to fear provided a comfort and fortitude. I then realized that I could hear myself more clearly. I had spent so much time doing what I thought was expected of me, that I had neglected myself as a person. ย Having been so mean to myself, I felt that it is now time to remedy what ails me and start a new chapter. I am very much looking forward to writing it.

I do hope you all have had a wonderful year and that your New Years was fantastic. More over I wish this year to be everything you hope for.

Cheers my friends,

D…

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18 thoughts on “The Tao of Stillness…

  1. Take everything as it comes, don’t worry about the “IF” or the “WHEN” because it will all come together in the end, it’s our year! great things are coming ๐Ÿ™‚

    • Actually it feels like it’s all coming together already. In fact when you look back don’t you think it all those steps, be they good or bad, were in preparation for something else.
      Yay for our year!!!!!!!

      • That’s exactly how i see it, everything happens for a reason right?

        Yay for health , fortune and more importantly? Mochi’s!!! ๐Ÿ˜€

      • Everything does happen for a reason, it’s just that sometimes we can’t see the reason right away.

        Health and happiness, eh fortune, I think I just want to be able to live well. Oh the mochi’s are the most important. I have to go and get some soon. I wish they sold those pretty strawberry ones here.

  2. I never did see or ask you, where are you? lol ๐Ÿ™‚ i’m in Vancouver

  3. Thank you for such an inspiring post. Sometimes when we are down, we seem to forget others are there too. Wishing u a very happy and successful year to come.

  4. This was so beautifully said, my friend; you are in a wonderful position right now, I hope you understand. So few of us actually realize that in order to really hear ourselves, we need to take the time to listen, but you did just that…and it looks like it paid off. With this realization will come not only an inner peace, but a true clarity of the mind, and I’m guessing your focus is about to become that much more honed. I congratulate you on this accomplishment and wish many more blessings for you, this 2012!! Hugs!!

    • Thank you so much for the compliment, truly high praise from a dear friend with great eloquence. I really feel at one with myself, there is a wonderful peace and calm that I feel. Sure some days will be tough, yesterday I was zonked out, I finally found a project I wanted to take on. I had decided on being picky, which was a gamble in this economy, but it was worth it. I have a very good feeling now, it took at least a year to find it. But it’s been something I have wanted to work on for a while. Needless to say I’m quite happy and hope that your wishes will be true.

      I am also wishing a wonderful year and beyond for you my dear friend. Big hugs!!!!

  5. I hope we all have a great 2012. I look forward to reading your blog more this year! You have some really great posts!

    • I agree, I hope all of us have a fantastic 2012. Thanks so much for the compliment, I hope that I can write some enjoyable posts this year. It’s been super busy this year (i.e. this week) so I haven’t had a chance to post or do a lot of the things I’ve wanted to do. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good slow day.

  6. I’m glad you found yourself closer to where you wanted to be. I wish you joy and more of that amazing self-awareness in the new year. ๐Ÿ™‚ I know what it’s like to rebuild and make some hard choices, but I believe contentment and happiness arise from exactly that: choice. Choice to be still, choice to be active, choice to listen… and doing them at the right times. Here’s to an amazing 2012, Danny!

    • Thank you so much for all of those wonderful well wishes my dear friend. I wish the same for you too, it’s almost time for you to graduate, that is so awesome. Girl, isn’t life all about the hard choices though? There are quite a few we have to make along the way. I think last year was just so different for me, I just tried my best not to over think things and plan. Although it was stressful in the way that it was so counterintuitive for a stressed out personality. This year has been so busy in comparison and has been full of surprises, I am still trying to suss things out and understand what path I must take or am on for that matter. It’s not what I had in mind but it’s probably what I really need. It is so hard letting go of one’s preconceived notions.

  7. Firstly, it is nice to see you well.

    Secondly, I haven’t been around as much as I should be. Sorry.

    Thirdly, I hope you had a great Christmas, New Year and that everything from this point is filled with happiness, hugs and things equal to cute puppies and kittens.

    • Firstly, thank you so much for your kind words.

      Secondly, I missed you, but no need to apologize. Sometimes life gets a bit busy, especially during the holiday season.

      Thirdly, I did have a nice Christmas and I love your New Years wishes. I hope the same wonderful things happen to you too my friend.

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